A pessimistic optimist's job search journey

An intensive week of job search progress for me. After putting the kids to bed, I’ve been lounging in the sofa watching tv just to decompress. Now I am zoned out and before going to sleep I am writing down about how I feel about this week. I am quite content with myself because I have done my best: prepared, practiced, got ready, showed up, told my story, followed up! I feel proud of my achievements and feel comfortable, even confident talking about them.

It takes a lot of experience to get into job interviews with confidence – yet, we answered what we consider “tough” questions with the most fundamental things at work (and also in life): communication, team work, the mentality to keep learning new things, to always have an open-minded.

I miss and I feel grateful for my former boss who had put so much trust and confidence in me. Knowing how competitive it is to apply for an EA position at a big company today, I realized how lucky I was ten years ago. I was so young and so inexperienced. Yet he gave me the opportunity to work along side him. I’ve learned so many lessons, I’ve grown so much. I messaged him when I started looking for jobs, that I need some to find the next Benny who will give me a chance – just like he did to me ten years ago, and I wanted him to wish me good luck. He still has so much confidence in me, he texted me back: “I wish you best of luck. You are a very good executive assistant. I don’t think I can find any other EA like you. But I hope you will find someone like me.” That brought tears to my eyes ;( I promised to myself again whatever I do I will do my best. I want him to be proud of me – the EA that he trained.