A pessimistic optimist's job search journey

My mind has been busy in the past few weeks with job applications. I mainly feel stressed. The last week was a bit more exciting, but this week I am “back” to self-doubt, disappointment and at the same time trying so that I am not too consumed about these negative feelings.

Just a few minutes ago I saw on LinkedIn a Ted talk about why we should not avoid negative feelings, why we should treat them equally as positive ones; so that we wont fall for false positive emotions. I went out with my friend this morning, we simply just took long walks, talking about kids, parents, random things. I felt like I should have some fresh air, talk to a friend – instead of just being busy with kids on working on the balloons by myself in the garage. I told my friends that I am struggling with finding a job, that I can’t help doubting myself, my capability, etc. I am usually quite private when it comes to this kind of matter; but somehow I just want to be a little more open about this – once. Maybe I’ve been feeling too alone.

I know at the end of the day looking for a job is my own problem, I will probably not follow most of the advices I receive. But talking about it – at least, makes me feel like this problem is just another problem in our life, probably I should not, I don’t have to feel ashamed about it.

I need to get over this current disappointment, and be ready for the next round of applications (and rejections).

“When you want to give up, remember why you started.”